Normally don’t do these types of post, but as the caption reads …..

lately I’ve been telling myself I’m going to improve, but not in the cheap, ” new year’s resolution”, start then stop kind of way, I mean genuine long term improvements. Normally this comes easy for me, simply because – mentally I do this with things I know for a fact I’m capable of. however, as of late, I’ve been trying to improve on my social skills.

Now, understand when I say “social skills”, I don’t mean in the classical “nerd that can’t talk to people” . I’m talking more in the need to find meaning in communion and interactions.  Reading, learning and understanding deep concepts like biology, physics, psychology, etc has never been a problem. I often hear Most people say things like, “I don’t like people”, or “I dont give a f**k”,but we all know when people tweet/say this, they really do care. Unfortunately for me this is true, I genuinely don’t care for social conventions. I’m a loner, I don’t mind being alone and often times find solitude completely blissful.  By psychological terms I’m an INTJ, one could also easily categorize me as a misanthrope. I accept and understand this, but I’m also not looking to be some super gregarious party guy,

schizoid – A Pattern of detachment from social relationships and a restricted range of emotions range of emotions.

Simply put, some isolation and some communion are necessary which is why I’m looking for a balance,  if you will. This “isolation” which has negative connotations should perhaps be replaced with ‘solitude’,which could mean self chosen retreat, is far too easy. I’m trying to dissolve all comfort in my life; comfort erodes the seeds of progress and growth.