As you grow and you’re pruned, the world crashes down around you defaulting to ash.

The dust of the ones you loved and thought loved you too, all scattered into miniscule fragments.

The after glow of day knowing you are destined to live the life of a phoenix. Whats always yours has always been, and will forever be.

Leave me to my thoughts, the ones you are mad when I express…the ones you cant control. The life you think you possess and the one I behold.

Those who watch the storms come…dare I beg you, pray them away?

And whats wrong with chasing waterfalls? The rivers and lakes I know are drying up like fadded memories and things I love to forget. Hate to remember you and the summers we fell in aubile laughter created in love.

I’m pretty sure Ive exhausted myself.

Make Cynicism Great Again

I bring you greetings from the hyperbolic death bed of a conspiracy theorist; here is my eulogy.

I saw a tweet from Yoko Ono, wishing Paul McCartney a Happy Birthday. As tradition would have it, I quoted the tweet and added a “Paul is Dead” for good measure. As I scrolled the comments to see who had done the same, I was disappointed. No one had mentioned Paul’s very non existent death, a theory as old as the Beatles themselves. What a fucking world”, I thought to myself…”or am I just old?”
The state of the current free world (pun intended) is in upheaval. Anarchy of sorts is upon us and many are excited or scared to death of: the pandemic, the importance of Black lives, killer hornets, the return of sports, a president and his twitter account as my list could continue on and on. What I am NOT seeing is a bunch of the conspiracy theorist in record numbers. Where are the people who believe this is all a government cover up to bring on the new world order? Where are the breakdowns about the book of Revelation and mark of the beast? Where are the urban legends about the loc ness monster in the chlamydia infested artic ocean? In my Lestat voice “come out come out, wherever you are.” Lets make modern philosophy and cynicism great again.

Saturday Thoughts…

What would it take to get inside of you?Just thinking about what makes that brilliant mind of yours tick, makes my stomach ache. Butterflies? Does the thought of flutters make your heart shutter?
I’m not ready to know you just yet. But if I was…I can’t help but wonder how many disappointments you’ve faced; how many loves arrived next to you, and never took place. Did some guy get to hold your hand or touch your heart with memories too soon erased?
You see me, but I cant find you. I’m looking at you, and you don’t recognize me.
Embrace yourself.
I’ll write a love song for the good times we haven’t had yet…the kisses that may never happen. And the thoughts I’ll never tell you.

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Skipping This Year’s Madden?

I am a big sports gamer.  It is the primary reason why I continue to play games in my 40s. I love sports and throughout the various generations of consoles the video games continue to improve in realism. Visually and mechanically these games have come to mirror the sports we love. But I am seeing fatigue with my beloved sports games much earlier this year.

Maybe I’m ready for the next generation of consoles. Maybe I’m beginning to grow out of my sports gaming habits. Maybe this generation of sports video games hasn’t been as great as I thought. Some portion of that is true. As I start taking in all of the news about this year’s crop of sports games, I can’t help but think that there hasn’t been a “great” version of my favorite sports games this generation.

Sure there have been the “best” version of Madden or 2K this console generation, but have they been great? I can think of versions of wrestling games (WWF No Mercy, N64), basketball games (NBA Live 2005, PS2), football games (ESPN NFL 2k5, Xbox) and more that sports gamers continue to love till this day. Maybe it’s easier to become nostalgic about a game you enjoyed years ago. Maybe I will feel the same about Madden NFL 18 or PES 2018. Two games that I played a lot of and enjoyed throughly.

As an EA Access member, I have 10 hours to play the new Madden NFL 20 and decide on whether or not I’m going to drop another $60 on a game I will probably stop playing in October. It’s become an annual, and costly, cycle that I’d like to break in the worst way. I love football and I love sports video games but new consoles are on the way, and I am feeling like this years sports games are a series of tweaks to keep us occupied before we see a leap in graphics and other mechanics.

With all that being said, I am enjoying trying out this year’s Madden but I also enjoyed last year’s game. Both games are similar in a lot of ways. I feel like graphics were slightly better last year. The gameplay improvements aren’t drastic but definitely noticeable. I am going to buy Madden this year but I am going to wait for a sale.  If recent years are any indication, this game will be on sale for about 50% less before Black Friday.